What a day! Last minute Christmas shopping that I promised myself I wouldn’t do. But we are finished! And this evening we have been wrapping gifts which I really enjoying doing. Christmas music on the radio, a glass of eggnog in our hands, I am measuring and cutting the paper and my guy is wrapping the gifts at the table. Talking and enjoying. We have also decided today that, as easy Christmas gifts when we go to parties or stop in at friends over the season, we are going to make fancy jars with dry cookie mix layered in them. Easy to do, delicious to eat and fun to receive. Now we will just see how much patience it will take to layer the ingredients on an angle in the jars!
Today I have to admit I am learning patience. I know advent is all about waiting and anticipation and patience, letting go of expectations and awaiting the miracle of Christmas. But today I find I am not very patient. I am rushing, am on edge slightly, am not letting the day unfold, as it will. And I admit I am taking it out a bit on my guy. Another lesson for marriage I am learning, letting go, forgiving, offering patience, finding space, opening up for what it will be. In the rush, I need to notice the tomato sauce I made for dinner: it simmered for hours, blending its flavours. I gave the food patience, I need to find it in my relationship as well. I need to await, to release my expectations and let it be. Everyday I find it is a chance for me to learn about being married and learn about myself, and watch myself. I remind myself to be the best self I can bring each day to my marriage!
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